There was a point in my life where I was MISERABLE. Consumed, swallowed, and lost in the sea of LIFE. I was passionate, driven, and knew that I wanted to make an impact in a big way. However, the day to day hustle and bustle took it’s toll on me. I could hardly think beyond the next hour let alone create a vision for my future. I was consumed in work drama, momma drama, and all of the other baggage that came with living the “American dream”.
There was a turning point. One day I decided that I was fed up with my job. Keep in mind that this “job” was my life. I gave my heart and soul to my work and really didn’t know anything different. What I did know was that how I felt on a day to day basis about my work needed to change. When I quit, I was quickly booted to the door with no regard for my years of service or contributions to the program. I boxed up my office, cried with a few co-workers, and walked out of a 10 year dysfunctional relationship. At the time, it felt like the absolute WORST thing in the world. I was hurt, my ego was crushed, and I had no idea what would come next.
Fast forward 3 years from that pivotal moment. I realize that this was all a part of HIS master plan for my life. I realize that the blessings that I’m experiencing in my life and business would be non-existent if it weren’t for that exact experience. You see some things happen in this life that we don’t have an answer for. Some things that are much more powerful and significant than leaving a job. We lose loved ones, we lose babies, we lose lovers, we are criticized, we are broken, we become lost…but we live. We live to see another day that we might not regard as a blessing. But it is. Each day is a blessing. Each enemy is a blessing. Each loss is balanced with a huge blessing.
As I sit here snuggling with my boy today, I am filled with gratitude. I’m blessed with freedom of time with my family, a thriving business that provides for me while I’m sleeping, and the ability to live a charged life being present to the small things that I used to take for granted. I can sit and read a book in the mornings without rushing out the door. I can pick my boy up from school when he’s sick without having to take a day off. I am able to stop and smell the roses if you will. I am able to take the time to figure out my true self.
I have learned that the blessings of strife, defeat, and adversity can only be revealed with our WILL. We must be willing to get up, dust ourselves off, and open ourselves up to the blessings that will follow. We can stay stuck our whole life if our story if we convince ourselves that it serves us. We can become so emotionally attached to those negative glimpses of our past that we fail to truly live. However, the beauty of GROWTH and new beginnings will come to pass when you realize that your struggles, your loss, and all of your negative experiences made you stronger and can open the door to the insanely bright future that awaits you.